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To say these past few months have been a fail is beyond an understatement.

:’/

Haven’t posted on here for awhile. :p

I haven posted much on here because I haven’t been sticking to my “diet” 100%. I mean, I haven’t binged and eaten like, crappy food, I just haven’t been eating as well as I was. I haven’t been on y daily scheduled meals and I ultimately feel terrible about that. I need to start eating more whole foods and snacking on apples and almonds and I know I have said this probably every post I’ve made within the last posts I made a good while ago, but I need to get back on track. We have a pedal bike at my house that we got from thrifting. I think my dad got a treadmill, so I have no excuse to not exercise now. Tomorrow I am going to get up, make a smoothie, oatmeal, and have my scheduled meals I’m supposed to be having. I can and will do it. :)

Feb 6

Woke up surprisingly early this morning.

Took ChoCho to school and then went on a mile walk around the lake. It was unbearably cold and my legs at one point felt like the muscles were frozen and would hurt to walk as fast as I was. I’m positive it’s because I didn’t warm up before going on the walk. I think I was way too excited about the fact that I woke up early enough to have a full day of what I need to do. I did cool down though. I never usually cool down, I just get in my car and leave. But when I do that, my legs hurt really bad and want to cramp while I’m driving. So cooling down is definitely something I am going to start doing, and probably should have done to begin with. Ah well, live and learn. :)
I got a Subway sandwich for lunch later on my way home and now I’m having my breakfast later than I anticipated because I spent a good hour wandering around Walgreens. (I love that store. Lol.) Oatmeal and a flax seed fruit smoothie is what I opted for this morning. Good choice, I must say. :)

I’ve lost a good 10+ pounds just by eating healthier.

It’s awesome. Like, the fact that eating healthier alone can make you feel so good and do so much for you, it’s awesome. I love learning all that I’ve learned this far on my “weight loss journey”. I haven’t gone too far, and I know there’s a lot more ahead of me. But the fact that I would have probably taken the “unhealthy” way out of losing weight and starving myself rather than just having the set meals a day that I have that include so many good nutrients for my body is amazing. I’m building myself up from almost the inside out and at times I get discouraged, but then there’s times I am so pumped! Just because you work out and are careless about what you eat, but still lose weight at the same time, doesnt mean you’re getting healthier, because I’ve learned that in time, by not teaching yourself healthy eating habits, you will probably only get youself back to where you once were. So getting in the habits I’ve already taught myself is only the beginning for me, but it’ll be so worth it in the end! Like, I haven’t had soda since I started which has been maybe a little over 4 weeks or so. Water, water, water it has been for me. About 16 oz. more than the suggested intake of water per day, maybe even more. Getting veggies into my diet has probably been the hardest, but the rest is easy to follow, most times. I drink tea on occasion and such, but mostly it’s been water. I have some kind of lean meat for 2 meals and a great breakfast. My snacks have mostly included apples and almonds. I’m getting a bit drained on those, but the nutrients are so good for me, it’s too hard to pass up. I’ve learned so much, like I said, and it’s wonderful! :D I’m nowhere near my goal, but I will get there in time. :)

Feb 2

I need to get up earlier.

I need to get up earlier.

That’s my biggest downfall and I need to have a routine. I NEED ONE! D:

I’m thinking of going on a all-liquid diet/juice fast.

I’m not sure for how long, but maybe a week or two. I’m going to probably be very grumpy/mad and I dunno. I just feel like that’s how I will be. But I want to do this because all the progress I made these past few weeks went down the drain in a matter of a few days. I don’t want to get into it because I’m so sick about how much I suck. I feel like this juice fast will get me to where I needed to be and I dunno. I feel like I’ve failed. 

I fucking hate life so much right now. I fucking hate it to it’s worthless core.

So far, that I’m aware of, I’ve lost 8 pounds.

I mean, I wish it was more, and maybe it has been more since my official unknown start date. Who knows what that exactly was because of my shitty scale. But, mann, 8 pounds, that’s something. :) I need to get more focused and stay on track. Things in life have felt so shitty lately and I’ve definitely just not felt like eating. I haven’t logged my meals in two days because I haven’t eaten much and I feel it’s irrelevant to log food when I’ve hardly eaten much. I dunno. I probably should. But I should also probably start waking up earlier and getting u day started. I need to go walk soon. Sooo bad. I need to do something. Tomorrow will be a better day, hopefully. :/

Uhmm…

So, I’ve had a crappy day as far as eating has gone and I feel like I over ate by a ton. Well, maybe not much, but, I dunno. My day consisted of this:

Breakfast:

  • Oatmeal made with almond milk, peanut butter, and maple syrup
  • Flax seed shake made with almond milk, strawberries, 1 banana, a tablespoon of honey, 1 packet of stevia, and 1 fair scoop of Fage greek yogurt.

Mid Morning Snack:

  • Artichoke leaves with mayo for dipping [RED FLAG]—Can’t have mayo.

Lunch:

  • Subway sandwich from yesterday that was a Subway Club on wheat bread, lettuce, tomato, olives, banana peppers, spinach, mayo, provolone cheese.

Mid Day Snack:

  • Apple
  • Almonds

Dinner:

  • Chipotle “salad” made with bed of lettuce, steak, pico de gallo, guacamole, small sprinkling of cheese.

"Binged"/Caved On (at some point in the day):

  • Toffee squares
  • Mayo (used for the condiment and/or dipping)
  • Fried Chicken

So yeah. I dunno. It sounds like a fail of a day. I need to really focus and honestly stop doing this. It is all going to be worth it in the end. I need to keep telling myself that. I didn’t go for a walk today which adds to how much more of a fail today was. Tomorrow I think I need to do some extra walking. I need to walk twice around the lake and make up for my shitty day I had. I also made myself throw up that chicken because I knew I had gone too far with my “binging” that I just had to get rid of that chicken. It wasn’t settling in my stomach and it’s really late to be eating and I just shouldn’t have eaten that chicken, period. I’m not going to make a habit of that throwing up because that, my children, is called Bulimia. But, tomorrow will be better and I will make sure of it.

(Source: hold-on-with-me)

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Breakfast:

  • Water
  • 2 tablespoons of Bragg Apple Cider Vinegar
  • 1 cup of non-instant oatmeal with blueberries, splash of maple syrup, and peanut butter.

I can’t wait for those bananas in the kitchen to get ripe! I’m so over blueberries in my oatmeal.

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I got up early enough to do everything I’m supposed to do today! And I’ll be doing it on time instead of cramming it all in when I would have woken up at like noon or 2.

Got up this morning because I had to take Rachael to school. I’m not complaining. I didn’t want to, but I’m glad I did. I got to go on a morning mile walk, I’m eating breakfast as I type this. I have my mid morning snack and lunch all set for today. I am good to go! :)

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becomingabombshell:

6 Moves for Sexy Sundress Arms

  1. Arm Definer
  2. Balance Buffer
  3. Bow and Arrow
  4. Core Press
  5. Redefine Reach
  6. Supergirl Soar

Gifs via eatposelove.tumblr.com
Video via Self Magazine

justwanttobehealthyandfit:

Peanut Butter Banana Oatmeal:
What You’ll Need:
1/2 cup plain oatmeal
1 small banana
1 tbsp peanut butter
Cinnamon to taste
What to do:
Cook the oatmeal with your choice of milk, water, almond milk, etc.
Stir in the peanut butter
Chop up a banana and place on top of the oatmeal!
This was really good and super filling. I ended up mashing up the banana into the oatmeal, but that, of course, is optional.(:

I’m making this tomorrow morning.

justwanttobehealthyandfit:

Peanut Butter Banana Oatmeal:

What You’ll Need:

  • 1/2 cup plain oatmeal
  • 1 small banana
  • 1 tbsp peanut butter
  • Cinnamon to taste

What to do:

  • Cook the oatmeal with your choice of milk, water, almond milk, etc.
  • Stir in the peanut butter
  • Chop up a banana and place on top of the oatmeal!

This was really good and super filling. I ended up mashing up the banana into the oatmeal, but that, of course, is optional.(:

I’m making this tomorrow morning.

This has been me lately. :P

This has been me lately. :P

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Dug out a couple pairs of tennis shoes to start walking in.

They’re a bit old and I haven’t worn them in awhile, so my goal is to lose 10 pounds and I will gift myself a new pair of tennis shoes. :)

Ready…BREAK!

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